Never before.

Never before have I felt like this.
Never before have I ever.
When I see you, I get this feeling.
That i've never felt before, a nervous feeling.
Like sombody is pouring really hot boiling water down
my throat, when i see you, I get word vomit.
I'm afraid to let you go, and I'm afraid to let you
know that I love you. I hate you for making me love you.
We got alot to work on, but I know your the only
one for me, and I know that god sent you here for a reason.
To show me that I'm special.
To sombody.

Never before, when I saw a boy I liked, have I ever felt
this feeling.


I asked myself is it fate.

I never know.

but I know there's nobody in this world.
No place in this world.
No feeling in this world.
That I wouldn't want to be.

Your the greatest memory.
Your the greatest thought.
your the greatest Dream.

Never before, have I felt so in love.

Never before.

Every girl deserves to be beautiful.

Every girl deserves to be beautiful.

Feel beautiful.

Be beautiful.

Act beautiful.

See the beauty in themselves.

See, my whole life I never considered myself.

"Pretty"

What is Pretty?
Is pretty what I'm suppose to feel when I look into the mirror.

The mirror has never been my friend.

It lies to me.

It makes me feel a discomfort I never felt before.

I ask god.

"Why do I look like this?"
"Why aren't I beautiful?"
"When do I get to be pretty?"

God told me every girl is beautiful,

Everybody is beautiful.

I am beautiful.

God dosen't make Ugly.

I wondered, "so if he didn't make ugly, why did he make me?"

A wise woman told me I was beautiful, and that woman was my mother.

When I walk around, Adults see my beauty.

Yet there was one special person who made me realize I have somthing to live for.

Sean.

He said I was beautiful, throughout my whole life.

it took one BOY.

To prove to myself, I am pretty.

I am, What I wanted to be.

I am beautiful.

No matter what people have to say.

I'm Beautiful.

I am no longer a child.

Somtimes I feel like I'm on a merry-go-round.
You know when your a kid you never want to get off?
My whole life I never wanted to get off the merry go round.
And face the fact that I'm living life.
To face the fact that I am no longer a child,
I cannot dwell on Childish things anymore.
I'm facing the fact, I got responsiblities.
To face the fact, I am no longer a child.
To face the fact, that I cannot be immature.

I'm scared to move on from my childish ways.
I'm scared to move on because If I do I'm never going to be able
to find myself again.
And the Merry go round just keeps getting faster and faster,
and the people are telling me the ride is over.
So what do I do?
Do I stay on the merry ground or do I go off?
Will I ever be able to get back on?
Is my time over?

Just the feeling of now I'm having responsibilities, is killing me.
I'm not longer sombody elses responsibility, When i do somthing wrong.
Instead of them feel the repercussion.
I'm starting to feel my own.

So now I'm just taking my last ride on this thing called a Merry-Go-Round.
Because this might be the last time I ever feel the rush.